Life as I know it.

well. from my last post you can tell it was long and I clearly needed a break from blogging. 

....

no the truth is I only post things when it comes to my heart in it's own timing and then I write about it. So me not blogging..blame it on my heart. ;P

actually,  I really don't have much to blog about anyways but here are some things that I have been up to.

(I've been very much getting close with my siblings. They are all such blessings, massive blessings in my life; and all in their own little way. The twins are great to play some basketball with at anytime. The girls are just little dolls who love to talk about anything! Austin (though not pictured) is pretty fun when it comes to soccer and just being silly ALL the time with each other! And Marissa is just the sweetest girl ever and we LOVE to talk about One Direction ;)

(Recently it was Easter weekend. and during that time I went to Florida with my bestiest friend Montana and her family! I had an ammmaazzinnnggggg blast! We swam on the beach everyday, which was so beautiful. Got some bonding time with Montana talking about the beauty of everything. Enjoyed every minute with her cousins who had traveled there from Michigan! 

Traveling was one of the funnest things ever. Squishing isn't fun, but squishing with these girls was legit.

 I. just. love. the. beach.

Hungry Howies. Some of the best pizza ever! :craves:

Walking to Sandy Bottoms. the only store on the Island. 2 miles away but loved the walk&talk kinda thing!

Navarre Beach's water tower...and even though it was called Navarre Beach...I thought "The Island of Navarre" sounded a lot better. just my opinion. 

yup. I got mad about these doughnuts.... >:|

Darci buried Montana in the sand...I don't know if she enjoyed that. Theses guys are like best friends :)

Underground, in Atlanta Georgia was a wonderful memory! lovvveeeed it. 

on the Subway which we found so amazing! I am so blessed to have Montana as a friend! She is so super beautiful and fun! and always sweet :D had the greatest times with her. I lover her.

subbwaayyyy! Kevin, Adriana and Savana!

the looooooongest, steeeeepest escalator we've ever experienced! wow was that scary!

(I have been getting to know ....

This beautiful sister of mine! Mikayla :) she is so amazing and cute at doing everything. I lover her so much and don't even know what I'd do without her!

I love this guy so much! He be so amazing and sweet. Always a goofball so there's never a dull moment when he's around! His family is the greatest. and I could tell him anything. Loli (:

(and of course AJ the creeper in the back. yusss that is my brother and I love him so much!)

JESUS. I love him and find out more about him everyday. Jesus is my man. <3 he holds my heart and will forever!

This amazing Girl Annette Somero herself! She is so super adorable and funnyyy :D I always have a great time with her.I lover herrr!

This fella right here! My BEST BUDDY EVER from Minnesota. Loganzzzz who never fails to make me laugh! I love this guy, who is THE biggest silly EVER! :D

MMYYYYYY NUUTTEELLLLAAAAAAA <33333333333333

I have fallin' in love with this stuff and cannot get enough of it! I fall asleep with it by my bedside and just <3

my mom wont let us take it upstairs anymore though, or it will disappear too fast. Sometimes if we can't help ourselves, Marissa will go dip our spoons in the toilet...therefore preventing us from using them again...

( I'm of course getting very close with my family ::::)))) every day!)

and me. I am getting to know the real me a whole lot more. and I'm happy to say I can be myself around anyone and not feel bad. Cause I love being me! and people can accept me or not just the way I am. The one's that accept me for me are the people I want to have as friends. so for all those who know me and my silly self and still love me, I appreciate you. 

like...............................................................................a whole lot.

(at this time I want to mention my hair...I can't stop playing with it! I love to braid and curl it the most. but sometimes I like to leave it natural. like above. I want to grow it soooo long, so NO one tempt me to cut it!)

(My sweeeeeeet sixteen! ^______^

I am so super excited for May 6th! I am actually turning 16 on the 11th and will get my license. biggest highlight of my life so far!

but anyway, I'm having a cookout on May 6th at my house and it is for ANYONE AND EVERYONE! (as long as I know you) So if your reading this, know YOU. ARE. INVITED.! (come after 1-anytime)

I think i will love this party the best because all my friends will be coming together as one and I will get to know them all better, reconnecting. PARTAYYING!!!

I know everything will be amazing...and perfect....but the only thing that could make it better is....if.

THIS GIRL. RIGHT HERE. WERE THERE.

Shelby my amazing BFF neeeeddds to be there! somehow...my life is going crazy without her! I lover her so much and miss her like mad. She one of the most beautiful and SWEETEST. I mean THE SWEETEST persons I know! Can't wait for July ^___^

(The "not prom" Prom!

I had an amazing night last Friday with some of my most AMAZING friends! Tonya, Renita, Roxanne and Emily! We got all dressed up like beautiful dolls and they all shined so much! it's easy believe that their hearts are are so beautiful too! 

We all went out to eat at "Something Different" and it was delicious! Had a great time as the cracker stuffer! ;) 

Then we all headed to Wal*Mart. and I guess it different to see people dressed up for walmart ;) we got quite a few stares and about 12-15 questions asking "Is it Prom night?" :P 

last but not least finishing with Dilishi's! always the best but 2 things made it SO much better. Getting checked out by Lindsey and Maria and figuring out they have NUTELLA to put on my fro-yo <3 

Well anyways that has been my life most recently. I hope yal were interested enough to keep reading ;)I love you all so much. God bless <3

Our Cake

This story is a parable. I wrote it with this song in mind.


"You're gonna have all of me 
You're gonna have all of me
'Cause you're worth every falling tear
You're worth facing any fear
You're gonna know all my love
Even if it's not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I'll start"

[Read it all if you want to make sense of it]

happy reading :D

One day I got a letter.

It said that everyone had to bake a cake.
We could only make one, and it would be served to the King, and the King would judge them.
Now the King decided that all the bakers who made good cakes, perfect cakes, could come in to his castle and dine with him at a big banquet! There would be dancing and chatting, singing and good eats. It would be a marvelous time that no one would want to miss! 
Now, not everyone got a letter. I actually knew of some poor lost people out in the back hills, but I'm sure they were fine. It shouldn't be my responsibility to make sure they heard the word.
Now I knew my cake was gonna be great! But it didn't have to be the best. I would try! but as long as it was good enough, I knew I would be fine! 
I was still gonna try though. 
I knew mine would top them all anyways. without even trying. So I went out and bragged about it.
yup, I bragged to all the people in the village, to all my family and anyone I met along the road. I told them of all the great things I would put in it and how I would decorate it. what platter I would set it on. (all that great jazz)
Then I decided the way I would bake it.
I would use my own kitchen.  
I decided to use my own kitchen utensils and my own apron.
 I would make it on my own time; when I wanted, and I would do it all by myself.
"There." I thought. "I know how to do this and I can do it on my own. I won't even really need the cook book. I pretty sure I know most of it."
Then it began. 
I pulled out the great big mixer and all the tools together. I  got out the ingredients that I thought would make a "good enough" cake and put on my apron. I was all ready to start. and then...
I remembered my fun. I remembered the time I was suppose to be spending with my friends. I remembers my sports and my exercise time and that Mall trip. 
then I thought, "Why should I start now? I am so busy. I have much more interesting/better things to do and it doesn't really have to be brought in til tomorrow...I think I will bake it tonight."
I took off my apron, got ready and went out. I had a marvelous time. I had the company of friends and the enjoyable pleasures of life. all was good.
I decided I had better get home and start on that cake, but by the time I got there I was so tired and worn out that there was no time to bake a good cake! 
"Besides," I told myself, "I can do it tomorrow." and with that I climbed into bed and fell fast asleep.
I woke up that morning with a determine to bake that cake. I got right down to business and put on my apron. The stuff was still sitting out so it was all prepared. I started cracking eggs and scooping flour, measuring sugars and oils. 
I thought this would turnout pretty well. 
I mean, sure maybe it needed a few extra tablespoons of  butter. and I know I could have put in another cup of flour, but I needed that for other stuff. My own pies and and breads. the King can do without that.
I set the oven temperature to a whooping 550 degrees and put in.
I set back and relaxed. I let the cake cook.
it cooked.
and cooked.
and cooked...and! 
burnt. 
Yeah, it burnt! I couldn't believe it! That beautiful cake! 
That cake that I had talked so much about, bragged on like so!
The one I thought would be so amazing had now turned into an ugly black mess! 
What'll I do, what will the king say?
"HEY!" I jumped to my feet! "The King is only going to be looking at it! right? I can make a beautiful, creamy white frosting and decorate it. It will look great and the King probably won't even taste it. He won't know of all the yuck inside." 
a knock at the door. 
oh no, who could this be? and my cake looks awful at the moment. I can't let him see it! "ugh this is the worst time possible." I thought.
 I took my cake and hid it in a cub-bard. I wen't to the door and reluctantly opened it. 
"hello, can I help you?" I asked, trying to be as pleasant as possible. 
"Yes I think I can." the kind man replied. "You seem to be having trouble with your cake. Can I help you? I know your cake isn't perfect but I have a perfect cake! It's free and you can have it. So why don't you throw that old thing away and take this?". From a box he pulled out a beautiful, spotless cake, with magnificent roses and a most delicious smell. 
I was stunned. "how did this man know of my secret cake? It wasn't any of his business and I didn't need him anyways." I got mad.
 I responded, "Sir, I made a great cake and I don't need your help!" 
I slammed the door. The beautiful cake was thrown in his face and I walked away, pride bellowing up inside. 
I went on to make the frosting. I covered the disgusting mess up. Great right? I thought so.
I thought about the nice man at the door, but shoved him out of my mind. I could do this on my own!
When the time had come, I went to the castle. I stood in line. I peeked around all the other villagers with their cakes. Some looked pretty good.
"Better than mine?" I wondered. 
Then I kept scanning the area and found some that looked terrible. Just awful! Then I knew, "The King will of course pick mine over theirs. Mine looks much nicer, mine is way better! Why would those people even dare present such awful things?"
"NEXT!"
It was my turn now. I would present my cake to the King. I know he would like it. He had too. it was good enough.
I laid my cake before the King. He at first seemed to have a look of great joy. He complimented me by telling me that it looked nice, "But now," he said, "Let's taste it!"
Oh dear, this is going to be terrible! I was going to be sent home with no beautiful blessing! No great banquet, no dancing or singing. all would be lost. 
The King did indeed try it. 
The fork went in 
The fork came out.
He was gonna gag, I knew it. 
But instead he had a look of understanding, like he already knew it would taste bad. 
I spoke up, "I know it taste bad! I know it does! Doesn't it?...why aren't you gagging?"
"I already knew it would be bad. I knew it couldn't be perfect. Did not a man come to your door offering you a perfect cake that you could present me with?" he asked.
"Yes, a man did," I answered, "But I did not accept because I wanted to make my own cake, my own way! I thought I could make it look beautiful enough to pass..."
"I understand," he answered, "unfortunately I only accept perfect cakes. outside and in. and why didn't you use your time wisely?" 
"Well I figured I could always make the cake later. I needed to have fun!" I answered angrily.
but softly he replied, "If you would have devoted more of your time to working on making your cake better, it most likely wouldn't turn out like this. The cake was your most important priority, but you pushed it off to last minute." 
Now wait a minute! Maybe I did push it off til the last minute but I at least I tried!" I argued, trying to find some way to win the argument, as if I could.
"Did you? He inquired, "Did you put in *all* your flour? Did you put in the right amount of everything and mix it the way the cook book says...or did you even read the book!?" 
"I...I-I meant too! I just..I".
"You didn't have time? or you were too prideful? You think you could have made it on your own but you can't. I'm sorry. It's not perfect. Even if you did try your hardest with all your time, it still could not have passed. You needed a perfect cake." and with that...
"NEXT!"
No. 
This couldn't be happening. My cake was not perfect for the King. With my cake in hand, I was kicked out of the castle. Never a chance to return again. 
As I walked down the lonely path of dark and cold I passed by some of the lonely people who had no idea of the cake baking, or the big banquet.
"WHY?" they called out to me, "Why didn't you tell us? You knew we were lost..we didn't even get a chance to get in. You left us out here with no understanding that there was anything going on! Why didn't you tell us?"
I walked alone in guilt and shame. 
I had nothing, I was nothing.
I brought my cake to the nearest dump and threw it on the ground. my life was wasted. I didn't have a perfect cake for the King. 


~the end~

Now I 'm not sure if the whole thing made quite much sense to you.
fact is, I don't know if it made much sense to me, I just spent 3 hours staring at this computer so I believe I've went a little loco.

To understand it, all the piece's in the story represent people or things in life...
The human is us. 
The King is God.
The palace is Heaven.
The people in the village are all those who have heard the great message.
The ones out in the country are the ones who know nothing about the Bible or Jesus or Heaven.
The cookbook is The Bible. 
The kind man was Jesus.
and the Cake, is our life's. 

We all have our life's to present to God one day.  We need to take care of it and deal with it wisely.We need to use God's advice and wisdom in our life's and rely on him, not trusting our own understanding. We need to put in the right amount of everything to make it work. Prayer and meditation, reading of the word, time with God. If we don't put in enough, it will fail. it will get black and messy. If we set our temperatures up to high, (boasting about the things we do) it will always end in a mess. You will think that nothing can be done with it. You actually might think you can just cover it up so it looks good, but we all know it's really not perfect.
Jesus is knocking at our door saying, I know you have a messed up life, but I have a new one! Throw away that old garbage and take this free offer! But if we don't except it were going to present our messed up life's to God with out perfection and down the road of dark and cold (or fire and chains) we'll go.
Even if we try and make our cakes (life's) the best we can, Jesus is still going to be needed.
We'll always "drop an egg" now and then.

Jesus is knocking at your door with a perfect Cake, will you accept it? 

We need to give *all* of us to God. and he needs to be first in our life's.


Life is a puzzle, we just have to fit the piece's in right.
God bless you all! love you!

this means YOU.

there are so many different kinds of people. Some we get along with and others, not so much. Some we have strong feelings for, others not so much and some...in just a different way. Some you know all your life, some you meet and right off like them, some you get to know during childhood and some you meet during the the "over the hill" process of life. Some are related to you, some distantly and others are just complete stranger wackos who look like their from mars O_o

but then, some special ones, turn out to be your best friends.

Friends are actually quite un-explainable. I really wanted to mention some beautiful traits of my friends. but really, it's quite hard.

Not that they can't be named, but THEY CAN'T BE NAMED.

lemme get this straight.

There are just too many wonderful things about them!

God put these amazing people in my life to bring me joy, comfort, laughter, thought, love, fun, support and a LOT more. Without them I don't know what I'd do! Life, would just not be the same.

I take so many trips and adventures with them. I love to go everywhere and experience crazy things :)

but sometimes just sitting there playing a game, running around during a sport or just having a good conversation is plain amazing. You guys are the bomb!

Some of you I hang out with all the time, you live around, you live far away, we talk online, I've only met you once, were related, your young, your old (older) haha, hey if we talk, your my friend. 

because I'm the type of person that I don't care who you are, we have a relation and I love you. that's just how it is. Jesus says to love everyone so that's what I try to do!

fur real. I'm not sure if you guys know how much you mean to me. I love you guys so much! 

If there is ANYTHING  I can EVER do for ANY of you, call me, text me, write me on fb or anything! 

I don't care if you need something, just wanna talk or need prayer. I'd love to chat! (THIS. IS. SERIOUS.)

Thanks again guys for making my life so special <3

John 15:12-15 “This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you.

A 5 day old Vlog....ENJOY:)

Please forgive the car ca-motion and my dad on the phone. kthx.

oh and whatever you do. don't die. cause then, you know

I'll have to peel all the the lemons myself and...you get the point.

Renita~

Nita is most defiantly in my vlog.

this is my fourth vlog.

sorry for all the epic facial expressions exposed on my face.

please listen closely to *Renita's* voice.

excuse mine.

love Renita's face and talent, as I do <3

love you friend whom I didn't know checked my blog. 

Nita is beautiful.

we par-tayed.

Anyway...

You know sometimes I when I see on Facebook or hear about or over the phone, that people I know hung out with their friends and went to these sweet places and had an amazing day and all these funny things happen and inside jokes and stuff. That sometimes I actually feel left out and get down about it. I feel like "ugh, well my day was boring and I missed out on all the fun. I had to stay here with my family."
But then I started thinking. You know, I stayed home, and it seemed like a drag; but home is where my family is. And actually when I think about it my house is fun! My family is fun! I didn't miss out on anything! Why I thought to myself, my family is crazy and nutty and we of course get a lil hectic sometimes, but it's actually such a blessing!
My family is so special to me and I just can't seem to get enough of them. It seems like they would get old and I want to break away from them anytime I could. (like a lot of teenagers do)
It SEEMS they're a bother and sure they get on my ever last nerves sometimes, and it's so funny to say but, what WOULD I do without them?
I'd be nuts! (yeah I know I am anyway but, you get the point.)
I mean I would plain go crazy! I love my crazy mom and how shes so easy to connect with. I love how I can tell her anything. I love how she is gree and flexible and shows her affection of love so much. I love how my dad is so hard working and smart, he's always got the answer and loves to smirk once in awhile, ugh it just makes me so proud! I love Austin's ego, you know the drive to get things accomplished and become great at everything. I love how he just sits there and thinks he cool, he know he's right. I love marissa's creative and very *interesting* ideas and how she always has a story to tell. HER DIMPLES! I love the twins adventure's spirits and how their imagination is limitless. The always have something new they're putting together. I love Kathryn and the way her smile is so chillingly cherry. Her love for her kitten is just so precious, Kat's such a big helper. I love Lil because she is just super gorgeous and her attitude is so cute. Her happy mood is SUCH a joy and her "not so good" mood is so funny and head strong. She loves playing with hair...everything with hair. Cara is a doll and her lil deep voice just melts my heart. "maadddiie." I mean too much. Her sweet 3 year old mind which sometimes just drifts away and doesn't seem to understand the simple things of life. And oh how she sing <3 I love Anthony and how he waddles around and just takes it all in. He'll just stand there watching you as his little mind tries to figure it all out. I love how he has such a peaceful nature and one curl at the nip of his neck.
So come on! Who doesn't want a family like that to spend a day with!?
If you had an "awesome" day, I'm sorry cause it seems you missed out.
I got to spend MY day, with my family.